Bad Day

Today I was in a car accident - luckly it wasn't bad at all, I need a new bumper because its cracked in a little spot that should only run around $100, contrary to the $500 to $1000 we originally thought. I am thankful my dad can do just about anything on a car - or come to think of it, he can do just about anything, period.

The lady I hit was not in any pain at that moment but has a bad neck and back so she was going to let me know if she felt bad tomorrow. I've been praying for her. She was really sweet.

Okay- I'll stop "b.s.ing"... I'm lost. My confidence is gone, my self worth is lost and I am really down in the dumps - below the dumps, if that's possible. I turned to God today and He gave me the best sign I could have ever received. On my way home from the accident, I asked God to give me a sign and so I turned it to K Love (91.1 fm) and the song Words I Would Say by Sidewalk Prophets was playing.

Part of the lyrics are:
Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope
You're going to do great things, I already know
God's got His hand on you, so don't live in fear
Forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray

To be honest - these words spoke to my heart and are exactly what I needed to hear. When everything first happened, I questioned why I was trying so hard to be a good person by adoping children for Christmas and always putting other people first, etc, etc, etc but then I heard this song and I realized that this is just a test and I need to endure it.

On another note - Nick might get a job in Washington state and I don't even know where to begin with that.

Things were much easier when I was a child - can I please go back?

Have a good weekend. And remember, 'never give up hope.'